Dear papa,

Today I wrote to Kullu Uncle. He has always been part of my life but through you. It was bitter sweet to write to him directly. I think the only reason I wrote to him is that I can no longer connect with him through you. Why did you go away papa?
I never got a chance to do anything for you, or for anyone else. Now I can not do anything either now that you are so far away. You no longer need the electric blanket. I wanted to be able to arrange a vacation for you and mummy. A big and relaxing vacation.Now you have gone on one all on your own. I hope you are doing well and enjoying yourself. Free from any pain any worry. We all miss you a lot. I have your pictures and your letters till we meet next.
I will always love you papa. Always.

Your Chuti-muti

6-7-13

I miss you papa. It will be six months since I saw you last. Even then it was hardly any talk, I was talking trying valiantly to be strong, and it was not goodbye. It is not good bye. I and here and still love you. Mummy and me were talking about that time, we have seemed to have lost such a lot of time to not have found out what you may have been thinking. What can I do for you? Can I do anything for you? Would you let me know even now if I could?

Please do.

:)

Dear papa,

Guess what it did not have to come to blows at all. Must be your magic. Thank you for being with me always. I love you and will always love you.

You know something, Mehr has fingers just like you and she likes to walk just like you with both hands folded in the back. She is also just the right kind of naughty, I wish you could have seen her now, I think you would have loved her even more. A lot of things that we spoke about I slowly understand in hindsight, Its a good thing I had stored those for later in life in the corners of my brain. They tend t o resurface like old hankies from old forgotten yester-winter coats :)

More later, I am still at work. Lots of love from who else??

Hold my hand

Dear  papa,

I am going to go in for a very important negotiation about my project, probably the most important one. Please give me your blessings. Please do not let me, let myself down. Please help me keep my cool and emotions under my control. This is not going to be easy, it will be tough and difficult all the way through but one thing at a time. I hope you are going to be there holding my hand every step of the way and giving me strength just as you have all these years.

Love you papa and miss you too.
Chuti-muti