Dear papa,

I am scared, I am anxious but I am equally certain I need to push through. I need to get over with this process that has been set in motion.

Shruti

Papa,

I miss you everyday. I wish you can see me and all of us from up there. Please guide me and be my strength. Don't let me stray. Help me be the person I want to be, the person I thought you were when I was younger. Someone I think you would be proud of and be worthy of being yours and mummy's. I hope that is not a tall order. If it is then I would rather strive for it than anything less than that. Please bless us and help us find meaning in our lives.

Love
Shruti

Dear papa,

If there is such a thing as a soul then the part that is exposed to my boss will have so many scars and open wounds on it that it would need to be amputated out. In order for the rest of it to survive. I am tired of having to protect it from the present environment.
I feel let down.I feel cheated out of learning and the training that I deserved. Also for taking this long to figure it all out. I hope when I am in a position of power what would I not like to be. I hope my memory serves me well. And I hope I also have vast reserves of strength to draw from to at least last me another 20 days.
I wish you were here. I wish you could just heal it all with your touch and your words and your voice of perspective. I am beginning to forget what you sound like. I hope there is some connection still active between us. I hope in between all of this I love you and always will.