Papa,

I need you to lift me up in spirit and morale. I feel a little out of sorts more in the self pity mode. I know I have a lot of be happy about and I am. I just feel more out of it all now that before. I feel like I can not be anywhere and do anything and feel that sense of accomplishment. I feel like I am excluded from somewhere. Something that needed doing and I am out of it. My existence is not of use to anyone or anything in general or in particular.

There is nothing wrong about it but it hurt. The only scientist in the family that is serving the country. It felt exclusionary. Is this how life is going to be a little bit out of everything somewhat? At some point we have to be objective about it. Looking at life standing on the sidelines. Aaj phir dilko humne samjhaya.

I miss you papa, its true that you  may not be able to help me but having you with me was something I took for granted. Having you in my life is something I took for granted. I hope you knew how much I love you and miss you. I hope you are peaceful and happy where you are.

Love
Shruti

There are so many things that everyday remind me of you. They are a part of me only because of you. They are a part if me because they were a part of you. I miss you.
Mansi and its thought is not the same without you.
Mangoes
Roses
Fishes
My Fair Lady
Music
and all things big and small...

Dear Papa,

If I knew the last time I saw you would be the last time I ever would, I would never have let you go.

Shruti