Dear Papa,
I don't know if we would have had this conversation face to face but now that I am getting this opportunity then why not. I am in love, after what seems to be a very long time. This thing that I am so exhilarated with is my work front. I am loving this phase in my life. My work is appreciated and is instrumental in making things happen in context. My opinion is sought and heard and listened to. I manage and advise other people.
I know what is going on around me. I like the people that I am working with. I genuinely ...
This is something I wrote but it never got sent. It was a draft that is just here. Got left behind. And as all good things come to an end this love affair seems to have ended and what I am left with is heart break. What I had to offer and what I did to bring up my new team was rejected. It is a step down. It feels like it.
This is not the first time it will happen either. Nor will this be the last time. I want to be in a place where I am not jaded enough that I do not put my heart into things that I am involved in. Where is the fun in that? I am sad and heartbroken but will that make me hold back? I certainly hope not. Will this make me toxic as a person? As I tell myself this is not the first or the last unfair thing that has happened or will happen.
I should have posted it when I was happy and excited. But it never made it out of the draft folder. Maybe this is the right time to put a closure on it. I want to leave this hurt behind and open my heart to another kind of hurt, something new to invest my emotions in. Get ready for my heart to broken again. Where is the fun in living if all we end up doing is protecting our heart? All it would do it keep it away from all joys and all kinds of fun, connection and true belonging.
I love you and miss you every day. I think you would have loved to see some of the things that I am doing and possibly would be proud of some of it.
Love
Shruti
I don't know if we would have had this conversation face to face but now that I am getting this opportunity then why not. I am in love, after what seems to be a very long time. This thing that I am so exhilarated with is my work front. I am loving this phase in my life. My work is appreciated and is instrumental in making things happen in context. My opinion is sought and heard and listened to. I manage and advise other people.
I know what is going on around me. I like the people that I am working with. I genuinely ...
This is something I wrote but it never got sent. It was a draft that is just here. Got left behind. And as all good things come to an end this love affair seems to have ended and what I am left with is heart break. What I had to offer and what I did to bring up my new team was rejected. It is a step down. It feels like it.
This is not the first time it will happen either. Nor will this be the last time. I want to be in a place where I am not jaded enough that I do not put my heart into things that I am involved in. Where is the fun in that? I am sad and heartbroken but will that make me hold back? I certainly hope not. Will this make me toxic as a person? As I tell myself this is not the first or the last unfair thing that has happened or will happen.
I should have posted it when I was happy and excited. But it never made it out of the draft folder. Maybe this is the right time to put a closure on it. I want to leave this hurt behind and open my heart to another kind of hurt, something new to invest my emotions in. Get ready for my heart to broken again. Where is the fun in living if all we end up doing is protecting our heart? All it would do it keep it away from all joys and all kinds of fun, connection and true belonging.
I love you and miss you every day. I think you would have loved to see some of the things that I am doing and possibly would be proud of some of it.
Love
Shruti
