papa,

Dhruv is here. Did you bless him on his way here?

Love
chuti-muti

Dear Papa,

There are so many things that are going to happen in the next few days. We are going to have a new baby and we are going to move into a new house. All these culturally landmark things of our lifetime, for and Bhumi.

I can not imagine that you are not here. Papa do you see us? Do you? I see you and think about you and I can not imagine that in this day and age I do not have any of your voice recordings. I miss hearing it. Mehr and the new one will never get to know you that way other kids have had a chance to.

They do not know how you have been what you were. I still have your letters and that is something that they can get a sense of what it meant to be you. Hopefully.

I will miss you especially in all these times and more.

Love

Papa,

Its Ind vs Aus and its world cup again. We are not dominating anything yet. The game is on and its just the first innings. I really do not want us to loose this game not to Aus. I really want Aus to loose and India to win. Now the power play is on and they are going for it in a big way.

We can probably do with some divine intervention, can you help?

Love
me

Dear Papa,

Its the world cup again and and I am pregnant again (I do however have no plans for carrying on in the same vein!) This is the first world cup without you. India won their first match against Pak and today is their second against SA. Its a fair fight at this point but knowing Indian Bowling we really needed another 20 runs to amp up the pressure.

Anyway these are the things that are more fun when we can talk about it and there is an active exchange about it. I am holding the fort for you. Are you getting to see any of this action papa??
Love you and miss you.

What do you think are the chances now for Ind?

Love
S

Its been two years today.  There are things that I wish and hope that you can see today. I hope that you can see that we are going to have a new member in our family in a few months. I hope you can see us. I hope you know how much you are missed. Your touch, your voice, your smile and your indulgence that I could hear through all these geographical miles between us. That smile in your voice, it made all those miles melt away and if I closed my eyes, then we cold be sitting in the same room sitting across from each other talking.

If only I could still hear your voice, If only you were still here. If only it was different...


I will always love you and you will always live in my memories in my heart through my interactions with Mehr and my interactions with the rest of the world.

Love
Chuti-muti

Dear Papa,

I had another interview today. It went well I think, I have no idea how it went especially after the fiasco of the last one. I still have not heard back from them. I think its unprofessional but then thats neither here nor there. The good thing is that hopefully I will find out in a week about this one.

I think I did the right thing and went about it in the best way I knew how and accurately expressed and portrayed myself. If I don't get it then may I am not the right fit.

A lot happened since I started typing. I got a call that I will be offered a job and I am excited. I am hoping to get the offer sometime monday or tuesday in writing.

Yay to that. Love

Chuti Muti

Dear Papa,

I want you to guide destiny in this case.Talk about expectations but its not that I think mostly I just want to somehow unburden and unwind and this is definitely one of the ways for me to do that. Lately life has been so hectic and gives me a feeling that I am running around like a headless chicken and doing all these rounds, jumping through all the hoops and crossing all the ts... but I am not sure to what end.
There is frantic activity and to do lists but I am not sure if I have picked up things that are helpful or I have made any progress. More recently I have given an interview at a company and I think it would be an interesting opportunity and it looks promising. I have worked with them in the past and that has been a god experience from what I understand for both the parties. In fact they wanted me to apply for this position. So all this was very encouraging. Only I have not heard from them. That has led to a fair amount of anxiety and leaping to conclusions  to pits of despair.
I want a pause, perspective and purpose in life and I also want your blessings and love and above all you.

Love
chuti-muti