There are times when you are looking for a release. There are times when I want to just cry, look at old photos and read old letters. Cry my heart out. Cry my eyes out. Loosen the knot in my chest that physically hurts. Sometimes it just so happens that I have suppressed this for so long, the tears don't come.
But lately the tears come, I cry and think that there may not be any more left. But there is still no release the knot stays, and it still hurts. A lot.

Its like love, the pain is never ending too.

I will love you always.