You know papa, things that I most hate about growing up is the scarcity of people that you can look upto. Coming from me and my perspective as you know how high that is; is extremely disheartening to say the least. I wish there was something that I could do to make things different for myself. Its not that I do not want to respect and trust but both these things need to be earned and most around me are not interested in doing that sort of a thing anymore. You remember how I once said that you did not bring us up to be of this world?? These are one of those times when I would reinstate that.

Anyway I got to be in this world for now and I am still thinking how to go about this whole thing. Should I succumb to the darker basal feelings about getting even with peole? Should I delegate it to god to get even with the perpetrators or what? I would have loved to run these thoughts by you, pata hai? Now you are so far away and I still haven't figured out how to get through to you. But hopefully I will figure something out.

I love you and miss you still.
Love
Chuti-muti